In the deepest cold
When the world is covered in snow and ice
When unforgiving winds
Cut through to our souls
Even in this time
When we look beneath the surface
Life continues
Life thrives
Patiently waiting
For a cue, a sign
To burst through the dark
And fight for existence
Continuing the cycle of life.
I hear your pain
And my heart cries
Your voice is empty
Devoid of hope
Barely treading water
It is my tendency to rush in
To carry that which is not mine to hold
Thereby depleting myself
And dishonoring your growth
I did not always understand
Pain must be felt alone
I am learning
That to stand alone
And to be alone
Are not, one in the same
Tonight I stand quietly by you
As you endure your emptiness
Within your solitude
Your angst
You journey further
And deeper
Into that which is uniquely
You.
Tonight I offer you my silence
Silence given in love
Silence so you may grieve in your way
Tonight I offer my energy
In meditation
Knowing I cannot fill you
Knowing I cannot empty myself
We cannot exist in parts of a whole
We must be as we are
Two unique spirits
Blending to create a friendship
Each entity
Whole
Separate
Unique
Navigating in tandem
Thriving independently
To gift myself my source must be infinite
I imagine my light
Whole
Brilliant
Inextinguishable
Replenishing
This abundance is my gift
To glean as you need
As you choose
In your time
Know as you travel alone
In your current pain
I walk beside you.
There is a light
Glimmering
Within me
Someone important once told me this
He told me
In times of need
To close my eyes
To see the flame
And to grow that flame
until it takes up
every inch of space
within me
I have taken this flame for granted
Assuming it will always be there
I check on it
just to be sure it is lit
But have not tended
nor care for it as I should
Sputtering
Crying out
Pleading for nourishment
Sustenance
I wave it away
You are lit, I say
That is enough.
That is not enough.
This light
This constant flame
Stirring within me
Yearns to grow
Yearns to overtake
Yearns to be so brilliant
So powerful
That it would burst through me
Synchronously touching those i touch
This light would will itself to emanate
through my fingertips
through my eyes
through my smile
Rendering me whole
solely through it's existence
The light wills this
And
If I am the light
I can will no less.
My heart is a force all her own
Wild and free
Unbridled
She will not be restrained
She will not back down
She leads me astray,
Or so distills my logic.
There is a beauty in something so raw,
so free
And there is pain
She is not balanced
She is full spectrum
She is ravishing
And she ravishes
There is no 10,000 foot view
There is only the moment
And in that moment
She radiates
She blooms
She withers
She dies
Each time choosing
To regenerate
A slightly different heart
The same melodic beat.
